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TWPT:
Tell us a little about your spiritual history and how you came to be
on the path that you are currently on.
MA: I grew up in a fairly atheistic household, perhaps
an atheistic, Jewish, Marxist household would be more accurate, and
yet, thinking back on it, my mother was a very spiritual person, and
going through the books on her shelves, after she died in 1970, I
found all these works by Alan Watts and books like "Zen and the
Art of Archery", and such.
But for me, the two moments that really took me into a different
world were events that happened in 5th and 7th grade, that I write
about in my book "Heretic's Heart". I went to this amazing
school called "City and Country" and in the fifth grade, on
May 1st, they actually got all the parents to bring the kids to
school at 4am, and we were driven out to the country where we picked
armfuls of flowers as the sun rose. Then we went back to school, and
strew flowers from classroom to classroom, singing medieval May
Carols as we did so.Then we danced around the Maypole. It was an
experience of joy and ecstatic connection that I will never forget.
Singing has always been a very important part of my ceremonial life,
but this really was the first experience of a ritual of emotion and
beauty. Then, in 7th grade, we spent the whole year studying ancient
Greece. I remember one extraordinary day when Edith Hamilton, who was
the Joseph Campbell of her time, came to tea at our scruffy little
school. The shabby library with its peeling paint had been
transformed with tablecloths. Anyway, I fell in love with Athena and
Artimis, wrote a play about the Trojan war, a musical actually, in
which there were hymns to Zeus and poems sung by Hera and other gods.
I think I decided on some really primal level that that was my
religion - the ancient Greek one.
Many years went by, and politics, not religion dominated my life
during most of the sixties. I became very involved with ecology
during a time when I was reading the nature writers and reporting on
many environmental stories - a year after the first earthday, around
1971, I started realizing that the environmental literature I was
reading was not merely political but was deeply spiritual. I remember
reading a statement by John Muir: "When you try and pick out
something by itself, you find it hitched to everything else in the
universe." I wanted a religion that understood the connectedness
of the cosmos. Well, I started reading "Encounters with the Arch
Druid" by John McPhee and wondered who the druids were. I also
read "The religious roots of our Environmental Crisis", an
article by the historian Arnold Toynbee, and it was the first time I
really understood that the Pagan world view was a different and less
exploitive world view than the dominant view in our culture. So, at
that time, 1971, I started looking for "an environmental"
religion, and through a lot of false starts found Paganism and Wicca.
I think if someone had told me of an organization that was reviving
the Greek religion, the ancient Greek religion, that is, I would have
run right over, but the only Pagan groups in my area seemed to be a
Welsh Wicca group and Gardnerians, and so I ended up first in the
former and then in the latter.
I initiated Gardnerian in 1973, and by 1976 was forming a Gardnerian
coven. Even before that, a friend and I were running Manhattan Pagan
Way, and conducting rituals in my home on the Sabbats. Soon I came to
feel that the Wicca I was experiencing was led by very nice people,
by and large, but they were not as intellectually interesting as the
stuff I was reading in magazines like Nemeton and Green Egg, and
that's what led me to explore outside my own coven and tradition, and
ultimately led to Drawing Down the Moon.
TWPT:
Have you always aspired to be a writer? When was it that you realized
that being an author was something that appealed to you?
MA: Not really. For years I couldn't even say that I
was a writer. Frankly, the written word always terrified me, because
of its eternal quality. Once it is down in print, you can't take it
back, and I am a very changeable person.
I've had trouble choosing magical names, and have changed mine. I
could never have a tattoo, cause I would want it removed in a year or
so. Radio is a medium that is very impermanent, in the sense that
what you say on tape is often forgotten. So it took a long while to
think about really working in print - such a definitive medium.
TWPT:
When did the idea first come to you to do the book Drawing Down the Moon?
MA: It was odd... the first inkling was an astrologer
who told me that I would write a book by the time I was 40. Actually
I started writing Drawing Down the Moon in 1974 when I wasn't even
30, but it was the first time someone had said the word "
book" to me. Then in 1973 or 1974, I had a very bizarre
boyfriend, the kind of person you (much later on) say, "Thank
god I got over that!", who was a writer and also a "space
propagandist". He took me into a bar to meet his literary agent.
We were sitting around talking, and she said, in that New York way,
"What do you do?". I said I did a radio show on Pacifica,
which was true at the time, and as I said this, I heard a voice in my
head, which is not something that happens to me ordinarily because I
am not a very occult oriented, or psychic person. The voice said,
"You are standing on a nexus point in the universe, and what you
do now, or say now, will change your life forever." I said,
"I am also involved in Witchcraft", and the literary
agent's eyes got very big and round. She asked for more and I told
her that there was this movement and it communicated by magazines and
journals (that was the truth at the time). She said, "Have you
ever thought about writing a book?"
I said, "frankly no, the written word terrifies me." She
said that she had just left a literary agency and was starting out on
her own, and if I called her in a couple of weeks, she would show me
the ropes about how to write a book proposal. I was terrified to
call, but it was one of those moments. She had just left an agency
and was striking out on her own, and she wanted clients. So she
called me. She told me what to do and I spent six weeks, writing a
sample chapter and a chapter outline ( all spurious, since it would
totally change) along with a two page outline of the book.
She started sending it around to various publishers and it was
rejected at a couple of places. It was seriously looked at by
Anchor/Doubleday's editor, but they wanted a more serious book. I
rewrote the proposal but in the meantime that editor left. The
rewritten proposal then went on to another place where it was
rejected again before ending up at Viking Publishers who liked what
they saw and took it. I got a $7500 advance minus ten percent to the
agent but in the beginning I only got about half that amount. Money
went a lot further in 1975 so I spent the next 3 years writing,
interviewing and researching to create Drawing Down the Moon. Of that
time I spent a year on unemployment, a year doing radio announcing on
the side, I spent time doing my show and the rest of the time I spent writing.
TWPT:
Did you have a specific goal in mind that you wanted the book to meet?
MA: I think at the time my main goal was to show the
broad breadth of the Pagan Movement. I was struck at how interesting
some of it was, and how tied to certain movements it was,
intellectual movements, the nature writings of people like Theodore
Roszak, the ecology movement, the feminist movement, and the
anarchist movement. Of course many of the groups I met didn't really
care about those issues, and in fact there were many kinds of
Paganism and Wicca. Part of me wanted to just show it all. In
retrospect I realize that I was sort of angry at the middle of the
road groups. I was much less mellow about certain issues, ecology and
feminism, and I got really pissed off at a few people. I had this
notion, admittedly naive, that everyone in the Craft would be a super
ecologist and then when it wasn't true I got angry. I met a whole lot
of people that were, quite frankly, just into the magic. Some of the
chapters of my book, like the chapter, "Living on the Earth"
reflect some of that anger. In fact, in one instance, a coven
actually threw me out, after I told a misogynist guy to bleep off.
Quite an awakening. I am a lot more mellow and older and wiser now.
The funny thing is, I have actually joked with Starhawk that when our
two books came out, on the same day on different coasts, on some,
almost unconscious level, we were writing about the Pagan movement we
wanted to exist, not necessarily the one that did exist at the time.
Sort of like the SCA is about the Middle Ages as some people would
like, not as they were.
Now twenty years later, the Pagan movement actually bears more of a
resemblance to the Pagan movement we wrote about than it did at the
time. I would never be such an egotist to say we helped dream it into
being in that form, but there is tiny element of that in there. At
least, probably a few people picking up the book, whose heads were in
that place, went out to form groups and joined the movement.
TWPT:
What did you learn from the many interviews that you conducted in
researching the book and did it change the way you approached your
own spiritual path?
MA: I learned that there were some amazing people out
there with fascinating ideas. I remember going to Dallas and seeing a
ritual by a group that was so much more exciting and deeper than any
ritual I had experienced in my own group. That gave me some real
insight into the broad breadth of the movement. I had fascinating
discussions with the people in CES, CAW, Feraferia, and that made me
convinced that Wicca was sometimes not the most intellectually
interesting part of the Pagan movement. I encountered feminist Wicca,
which I had really not encountered until I started working on my
book.... and that influenced me a lot. I had always seen myself as a
feminist, but had never really taken a look at feminist Wicca, and
the vibrancy of women's rituals affected me greatly - the power and
spontaneity really influenced me.
TWPT:
Did you have any idea that your book would be so popular that it
would be on most recommended reading lists for those who were
considering the Wiccan/Pagan paths? How does that make you feel
knowing that you are for many seekers the introduction to these brand
new worlds of spirituality?
MA: The book's real popularity didn't happen for the
first few years. Viking only published five thousand copies, and
Beacon bought the paperback rights for about $4000 dollars, and put
out a paperback edition with a very unexciting cover with Janet
Farrar on it. Then in 1986, the revised edition really took off, and
that edition with the fabulous red and black cover and the big
resource section was when I think it made a deep impact. I know I
didn't get a single penny of royalties until after the revised
edition came out. I think the fact that this book is read in small
town libraries, in prisons, etc. is one of my favorite things about
it. It is still the way many people come to understand Paganism. It
is often the book people give their parents or someone else who they
think will be very skittish learning about the Craft. I think on a
very deep psychological level, I did write the book to be one that my
atheist father could be proud of, and he was. He could always defend
it intellectually, even though he hated all that "religion
stuff". Looking back, I might have written more personally if I
had written at a later point in my life. But other than that, I'm
still very proud of it, and of the time and care I took with every footnote.
TWPT:
Any chance that we might see a new revision of Drawing Down the Moon
at some point in the future?
MA: I don't know. That's the truth. Any real revision,
as opposed to just updating the resource list, would take a real big
effort, and right now I am overbooked with my NPR job, hosting a
constitutional law show, doing lectures and workshops, being a mom
and having a family. So I can't conceive of putting out the effort I
put out for Drawing Down the Moon. It actually took three whole years
to do it.
There probably is a way of doing a new book on the Pagan Movement, an
addition or something, but a real revision would take more effort
than I am willing currently to give.
TWPT:
What are some of the major changes that you have seen in the Pagan
community since the publication of your revised edition in 1986? For
better or worse.
MA: I think that there is a stronger
"traditional" Wiccan community than before.
I think that there is much more mainstreaming of Wicca into the
society. There has been an effect from all those TV shows, and movies
and books. The newspapers don't cover Wicca only on Samhain. There
are many more younger Wiccans but some of what I see is, the more
things change, the more things remain the same. There are still petty
squabbles and Witch wars, I was hoping those would go away! There are
still people questioning everybody's credentials. Personally, I would
put Doreen Valiente's wonderful phrase on every Craft publication.
She once said. "The only Queen I bow before is the Queen of
England." All this lady this and lord that - which we use in the
Gardnerian trad and in many other trads, is totally bogus, and we
should throw it out. It's ridiculous to use in a society that proudly
threw out the King more than 200 years ago.
The Unitarian Pagans are bigger than ever, and several years ago the
Unitarian Universalist Association officially welcomed the
earth-based traditions by including earthbased spirituality in their
list of six sources from which the UUA comes.... that's huge. While
the UUA is definitely not for everyone, and one of the great things
about Wicca is it's not an organized church, we now can say that one
of the main religious organizations of this country, in fact the one
that people like Thoreau and Emerson belonged to, is a welcoming
place for Wicca... that's pretty monumental.
I think the main struggle for Wicca and all forms of Contemporary
Paganism remains the tension between being more mainstream and
organized and keeping the strength that a critic from the outside
always has - which allows us to see the real problems with religion
in America. I personally like the outsider role and am not sure about
all this, "lets have churches, let's have seminaries, let's have
paid clergy, lets be just like all the rest."
I don't think this tension will resolve, and it's an evolving
situation, but it's probably the primary struggle going on in the
movement. I still believe Wicca will always be a minority religion in
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