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TWPT: When was it that you decided
to write as a way to present your research to others who might be
looking for the Goddess?
Was it difficult to find a publisher for the
material that you were writing?
What kind of feed back did you get from your first
writing efforts about the Goddess and did you expect this kind of reaction?
How has contact with others of like mind changed
your own perceptions of the Goddess if at all?
Do you feel that society has grown to the point
that the image of the feminine divine is more acceptable today than
what it was 20 or 30 years ago?
What kinds of people are being drawn to the
Goddess and what are some of the reasons that you are hearing as to
why they are coming now.
What lies ahead for the Goddess movement around
the world? What would you personally like to see within the movement
that is not happening right now?
Tell me how all of this research on the Goddess
fits in with your work at DePaul University.
PM: I like to say I'm one of those people for whom a
career choice didn't exist: there's really only one thing I do well,
and that's writing. I wanted to be a writer from the time I was a
child, even though I never knew a writer and came from a family where
no one had ever been privileged to receive an education. I was the
first in my entire extended family to earn a college degree, and the
first to earn a master's, and a Ph.D. Many of my siblings and cousins
have followed me, but I pioneered. I'm not entirely sure where I got
the grit to work my way through college and to hold onto my dream of
being a writer, but somehow I did. I remember my advisor in college
telling me that he was disappointed in me, that I seemed like such a level-headed
"girl," and that didn't I know there were no great women
writers? At the time, in the 60's, women were not included on syllabi
in literature classes, so the only thing I could do was to squeak out
Emily Dickinson's name. My professor dismissed her by saying,
"Oh, yeah, if you want to never marry and wear a white dress all
your life." So to put it mildly, I was never much encouraged in
my aspirations.
So I became a printer. Yes. My first job was in a print shop, setting
type for a newspaper. I had a degree in English and I was correcting
the grammar of the non-degreed male reporters. So I went back to
school and got a master's in English--again working my way through
school, this time as a proofreader in an advertising agency. But that
degree opened doors at last, and I was able to start finding work as
a journalist. I believe those ten years of journalism were very good
for me in that I learned how to write on demand. I learned that
writing creates its own mood and that the best way to court the muse
is to start work. She tends to come 'round where there's the sound of
typing, I find.
But once again, when I started working on writing about the goddess,
I received little encouragement. Working on my master of fine arts
degree (I have this tendency to go back to school; maybe it's just as
well I've run out of higher degrees to earn, I may someday pay off my
student loans!), I was writing poems in the voices of goddesses. This
was the mid-70's, and the poems eventually became Seasons of the
Witch. The head of the department told me to stop, because writing
about myth went out in the 19th century. I went underground as a poet
at that point but kept writing goddess poetry in secret.
I often ponder how I managed to keep the flame alive when I was
living on the edge of the arctic circle and receiving little or no
encouragement for my work. I think part of it is my innate
stubbornness; once I start something, I finish it; I'm almost all
fixed signs, Aquarius, Scorpio, Leo. And I had the great natural
world to support me. Support certainly wasn't coming from publishers
or editors or professors!
With the first edition of Goddesses and Heroines, I was very lucky to
be referred by the husband of a friend to an editor in New York who
did reference books. That editor wasn't interested but, because I had
been recommended by one of her authors, she left the manuscript on
the desk of Bill Whitehead. This was perhaps the greatest bit of luck
I've encountered as a writer, because Bill was a genius of an editor,
one who published Ram Dass, Gregory Bateson, Philip Slater. A
wonderful man who died prematurely, a gifted spirit. He not only
bought Goddesses and Heroines, he encouraged me all through the
arduous process of finishing it.
But when it was first published in 1981, there was very little
response. The goddess movement was tiny at the time, and I was living
in Alaska, where I couldn't really travel for promotion. Then Bill
died, and the publisher dumped most of his authors. So, after finding
my way into print, I found myself out of print. It was a period of
great despair. The state of Alaska sort of went bankrupt at the time,
because oil prices had skidded; my job left me when my community
college was shut down. It was pretty miserable!
So I moved to the States--whoops, that's an Alaskanism! I mean the
Lower States. There was not much of a goddess movement in Alaska, but
down here I found conferences, festivals, and groups exploring the
goddess. Llewellyn offered to bring G&H back into print. This was
in the late 80's, and things could not have been more different than
they'd been ten years earlier. Since then I've seen a steady increase
in interest in the goddess, so that it's almost mainstream now.
Publishers are still a bit wary. The "goddess trend" has
been declared over and done several times since I started writing.
But each time I hear that publishers are rejecting goddess book
because the bubble has burst, another swell of interest appears. When
I travel and lecture, I hear people--women and men--reporting that
they've been led to the goddess through dreams and meditations, as
well as through books and other media. Typically I find that people
find the goddess first, then seek out or find themselves encountering
others on her path. Rarely have I met someone who starts by joining a
group, and then says, "oh, hey, so we're going to worship a
goddess here! Alright!" It's more like there's an intuitive
connection, through nature or the soul, which leads to searching
through books and music, which in turn leads to people looking for
others who honor her.
Some of the reemergence of the goddess is tied to the great sense of
ecological endangerment, both here and in other lands. I see men
coming to events more often now, too, as they realize the need to
balance. Girls are such great energies, and I see more young women
finding the goddess in themselves, and then reaching out to others to
celebrate her. It's an exciting time.
I'm not certain where I see the movement going, because I still
remain more a scholar and poet than a leader of groups. But I can
tell you where I've been led. After 25 years of traveling to Ireland,
I've found myself writing about the goddess there. And this in turn
has led me to a new kind of writing, which is much more exploratory
and personal. Using myth to illuminate my own life, not having a
stark boundary between self and land and myth. It's a hard kind of
writing, and this book is taking me quite a few years. (Readers can
see a sample chapter on my website: www.altogether.com/patricia/).
This in turn has led me to realize how divided we are, separating the
outer world from our inner world in our discourse, when in fact they
are not separated in our experience. As I say, it's an extremely
demanding kind of writing, because it isn't just autobiography, but
spiritual geography.
I have been encouraging younger writers with whom I work to bring
their own experiences into their writing. It's not legitimate
academically to footnote your own vision quest, yet we do receive
information through dreams and visions and mystical experiences. And
we need a kind of writing that permits that to be explored.
None of this has anything to do with my day job! I teach science and
literature at DePaul, where I am on the interdisciplinary faculty. To
some extent it's easier not to have to fight academic battles for the
right to do my work; I have known people who fear for their job
security if they dare write what they know. However, this choice
means that I have to research, write and publish in two fields. While
free from anyone bringing their own agenda to bear on my goddess
work, I have not had a vacation in over ten years. The price of freedom! |